I just wanna feel better already. I wanna be through this part.
I don’t wanna do the work, I wish I was writing to you from the other side where I could say “and now I feel better and if you just do XYZ you’ll feel better too.”
But I’m in the messy middle…
And it feels… messy and heavy and a little nauseous.
My old pattern would be to drink a bunch of coffee and get so freaking busy that I can’t even feel it anymore.
I ask my intuition whether I should work while experiencing the heaviness or take a little break and she says, “Both work. As long as you make space for this heavy part at some point, it doesn’t have to be immediately. But you could do it now since you have a little break before your next client.”
My brain tells me if I take a break now it’ll last too long and my business will fail.
But my intuition knows that processing my feelings is one of the most valuable things I can do… even for my business.
So I don’t wanna but I put on some Bon Iver sad songs and put my hand on my heart and spend some time.
After I still feel heavy but a little bit lighter.
If you’re tired of ‘doing the work’ I hear you. Me too.
What’s one tiny thing you could do that’s a little loving to yourself?
Sending love for the days when you don’t wanna,
PS Work with me because you’ll see more clearly how old traumas are making your current goals difficult.
Like say you have writers block when it comes to Instagram posts. You tell yourself other ppl are better at Instagram but you should be able to persevere and be more consistent and be better. But then you realize that when you were a kid you felt super uncoordinated at gymnastics compared to your sister. And you wanted to quit but your parents were annoyed and said “you’re not a hard worker like your sister.”
And you created this whole identity of “I’m not a hard worker”
But the truth was you were working really hard to get through math at school and didn’t have a ton of energy left for gymnastics.
And what you really needed was some encouragement and some extra help with your cartwheels.
You realize now that it’s okay for IG posts not to be perfect and it’s okay to need some help. And you feel lighter when you think about it because you realize you worked your ass off at math and that you really are a hard worker, so you can figure this out too.
So you set up a coworking session with your entrepreneur bestie where you can both work on your posts and be playful and silly and experimental.
You heal the old traumas so the present day challenges become easier and even more fun.