Category: Uncategorized
Value…
She wanted to share so she created a course on what had helped her. She launched it and 2 people bought.
Even though she had this deep inner contentment, she didn’t have much money. Ppl didn’t see the value in the course, so she stopped trying to sell it.
Meaning of Life…
I’m going through some hard family stuff I’m not ready to share yet.
It’s reminding me how short life is.
more abandonment stuff…
I feel very in-process with this abandonment stuff. Some moments I feel strong and others I feel wobbly and unsure and scared.
I know I’m on the right track and doing this healing work is going to free me up so much.
And sometimes it feels like a lot.
Homemade Soup Energy
I want to make a lot of money and impact a lot of people.
But not at the expense of my heart and my ethics.
My essence is hearty homemade soup. Fresh simple ingredients like cumin and garlic and ginger fried for a long time on low heat so they infuse the oil with yummyness.
I don’t wanna…
I just wanna feel better already. I wanna be through this part.
I don’t wanna do the work, I wish I was writing to you from the other side where I could say “and now I feel better and if you just do XYZ you’ll feel better too.”
But I’m in the messy middle…
And it feels… messy and heavy and a little nauseous.
Scholarship spots now open :)
I’ve decided to open my scholarship slots indefinitely and I’ll review applications as they come in on a rolling basis.
I may have to close them at some point but for now I feel the impulse to work with as many folks as I can who are the right fit at my scholarship rate. (While of course still honouring my own needs for breaks and time off ;)!!)
Feeling Lazy…
I went to the park yesterday and ended up writing a post sitting in the sun on a park bench.
It was super pleasurable. And then when I got home my unconscious thought was: wow, I didn’t work very hard today. I just went for a nice walk to the park. I’m never going to succeed if I’m so lazy.
I think I have some deep seated Protestant belief that for me to be productive means it has to be UNPLEASURABLE.
Abandonment
I used to feel betrayed if a friend was 15 minutes late to the restaurant.
“YOU MADE A COMMITMENT AND YOU LIED. WTF.”
But it was really about some commitments that were broken when I was little that absolutely should have been kept. I’m not actually enraged at my friend but at the person from childhood…
Suprising things about me:
- I laugh hysterically at fart jokes, and it can be a little confusing to those who don’t know me that well.
- I hate small talk. I used to have to do networking with lawyers for my old job and it was excruciating aside from the times when I’d meet a passionate social justice oriented lawyer and we’d have a long deep convo about the state of the world…