I thought, it would be a fun goal to become financially free (aka have enough money in investments that I could live off the interest.)
But then I immediately thought, nope, that’s evil. Don’t do that.
If you’re financially free, then all the money that’s in your investments could be used for people who don’t have enough food. You’re a greedy selfish person to want that. To want to feel that safe.
But the funny thing is when I think about my clients, I would be so happy and proud of them if they were financially free. And I know they would use their power and influence as a source of good.
I love the idea of money women and non-binary folks achieving financial freedom.
I’m so glad Taylor Swift is a bajillionaire and gives huge bonuses to her staff and huge donations to good banks and organizations that work to prevent sexual assault.
I’m glad Beyonce is such a role model and has donated millions to children, youth, students and natural disaster victims.
And I would be proud if my sister or cousin’s success, if they became financially free.
But if I do it, then it’s evil. Then it’s taking away from the people who need money the most.
Which comes down to one of my most pervasive wounded beliefs: I’m really a bad person deep down and am just good at covering it up. When ppl find out the truth, they’ll know that I’m really a bad person…
But really what I know about myself is that I’m thoughtful and make ethical investments. The retirement savings I have now are invested in solar panels. And I know that I would do more research to find other ethical places to put my money.
I think with the current war and genocide that’s happening, I couldn’t handle if I was invested in arms manufacturers or other companies that making money off the deaths of innocent civilians.
And I also know that me just stepping out of the financial game and trying to live on as little money as possible, doesn’t mean that the money will automatically flow to those who need it the most.
That the financial system needs wave makers to corral and push money in the right direction.
And that if I can create a fertile investment that creates financial security for myself, that I’ll know how to ethically corral and push even more money towards causes I believe in.
And that one option, since I”m not sure if I’ll have kids, would be to donate the majority of my money to organizations I believe in with my will. To ethically invest it for a time and then to pass it onto creating a better world.
I want to believe it’s safe to take care of myself. It’s safe to be financially secure. And that financial security will not turn me into someone who lies on the beach 24/7 and doesn’t give an eff about those who are suffering.
And I have to remind myself, that I get to make the positive ripple in the pond. That I hope that my life impacts those close to me and my community positively but that it’s too big of a goal to imagine that by the time I die all war and famine will be eradicated.
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