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How do you come back to daily living?  How do you re-enter your life?

I had the most amazing and beautiful trip to Nunavut.  I spent a lot of time alone on the ocean and came back into myself.

Now – re-entering my day to day life – I seem to have lost the sparkle.  The city seems grey and dull compared to the expansive North.  I’m not sure how I can weave my experience of the arctic into my getting up, drinking coffee, taking the subway, working at a computer.

It’s like I fell in love with the ocean but now it’s gone and nothing seems to be able to replace it.

I tell myself I should be grateful to be home, for my warm and beautiful house, friends that I love, for interesting work but I feel grey like the city.  Maybe it’s because the person I had a crush on just started dating someone.  Maybe it’s because nothing can be as wild and beautiful as the arctic.

I’m chai tea and listening to Sufjan Stevens.  I’m wearing a summer dress. I’m trying to try to kickstart my spirit that was smothered by the rain.

How do we navigate the space after these wild and beautiful experiences?  How do we re-enter our daily lives after we’ve had our hearts cracked open?  How do we stay inside? How do we stay with our work? How can I bring that expansive feeling of the arctic into my living room?

 

At one of the group therapy workshops that I took, they reminded us that after an expansion there is a natural contraction that happens.  We have moments that open our hearts wider than we thought was possible but our hearts cannot stay open like that forever.  A quiet closing inwards again is natural.

And the other thing I’ve learned is that every expansive experience ends in a different way.  Sometimes it ends in sobbing, sometimes, like this time, it is a quiet dulling, sometimes it is possible to bring the expansiveness into my life and work and everything lights up.

My heart opened to a land and it’s people and now it must break a little bit.

And one reaction I could have is to harden my heart, never open it again because that’s the only way to ensure it will never break again.  But I can’t do that.

Every time we open ourselves to love, heartbreak becomes inevitable.  So we can live a life full of the love and heart break or we can as Kahlil Gibran writes in the Prophet move into,

The seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.

 

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Bryn
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Bryn Bamber
Career Burnout Coach
The Courage Compass
bryn@couragecompass.org

 

 

Author: Bryn Bamber

I work with big hearted people who want to make a positive impact in the world. The only problem is: -Your career isn’t working -You wake up some days and don’t want to get out of bed -You’re stressed about paying the bills Career Coaching in the Forest teaches you how to make small shifts that will free up tons of energy for the things you really love. A life where you wake up to feeling a sense of purpose and easily pay the bills. I teach you how to approach making a career change in a way that is fun, easy and gets results :). I have over a decade of experience in the field of education and during my four years at an educational non-profit I hired enough contract staff to know what employers want and DON’T WANT in the job application process. So why did I start this? When I was 24, I was overwhelmed by my job working with vulnerable youth and fell apart. I moved to a yoga centre for 2 years to put myself back together. There I figured out what I was messing up at work and became a yoga and meditation teacher. Career Coaching in the Forest will help you to see the mistakes you’re making without having to move to a yoga centre! And use meditative practices to help you see where you need to go. I know exactly what it feels when something’s not right in your career and now I love helping others to make changes so their lives can become full of meaning and purpose again and so that you can make lots money too ;). Start today: get my Free Resource: Land Your Dream Job Checklist here - tinyurl.com/dreamjobchecklist And above all else, please go for your dreams. Your life has meaning. You are here for reason. Find out what it is and when you do put all you that you got towards it! Talk soon! Bryn To learn more go to www.couragecompass.org

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