I sat beside the edge of the water, terrified. I was on a hiking trip alone and it was getting cold. A voice inside my head had just told me to quit my job.
But what will I do?? How will I make money?! How will I survive?? I asked to no one in particular, What will my family think?
The voice kept talking, “You’ll figure it out. You’ll be taken care of. Your family will understand.”
I rocked back and forth beside the lake. Staring out at the water. It was getting darker and colder.
But I love my job. But I believe in the work. I can’t possibly expect anything better.
The voice was calm and soothing, You’ll be okay. You’ll find meaningful work. You’ll figure out your life.
Tell your boss on Dec 1st, leave the job May 1st.
I was overwhelmed. Quitting felt like jumping off a cliff. Quitting felt impossible.
So when I got back to the city and I let myself forget about it. It was a weird experience and I was probably just crazy. Plus, my job wasn’t that bad… Sure I was exhausted but there were good moments. The work was meaningful.
A month later I made a mistake with one of the youth. I beat myself up for it and would wake up feeling tired and incompetent. I questioned whether I was doing more harm than good. And I started to consider quitting again.
In January I summoned my courage and quit. My boss offered me a 4 month leave instead. I was flattered they wanted me to stay but I knew I needed more than 4 months. I jumped off the cliff.
And it was fucking terrifying. I didn’t know what I was going to do. I didn’t know where to start. But I also felt more free than I had in a long time…
A part of me was terrified but the calm voice from the lake was around too. Telling me to take it step by step. Telling me everything would be okay.
So I started to take it step by step.
-feel like at the end of the day you have nothing left to give
-feel more sensitive than usual to the little things that come up
-feel like you’ve taken on too much and aren’t certain if it’s all really aligned with your purpose
IMAGINE YOU COULD:
-feel satisfied at the end of the day
-easily pay the bills
-and feel like you could take on anything
That’s exactly why I created this checklist that gives you 3 simple steps to walk you have more time, less stress and more energy for the things you love:
To finish my story, after I quit I moved to a yoga retreat and study centre in the mountains and spent 2 years studying yoga, meditation and inner workings of my mind. This checklist is a SHORT CUT based on what I learned during this time, so you don’t have to take two years off your life ;).
I believe in you and I believe step by step you’ll get there,
Author. Speaker. Coach.
The Courage Compass
“Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”