It started with panic attacks… I would be lying in bed trying to sleep and hear a small noise and shoot out of bed. I was in a long distance relationship so I would call my boyfriend in a panic and he would tell me to call someone who was close by. Someone who could bike over and give me a hug and tell me everything was going to be okay.
Sometimes I would muster the courage to call someone close by. Other times it would feel like too much. I felt like too much of a burden. I felt like I didn’t have friends close enough. It felt too vulnerable to reach out when I was so scared.
And then I would wake up in the morning and pull the covers over my head. “Don’t make me get up. Don’t make me go to work,” I would beg to no one in particular.
I’d loved my job during the summer. I’d been able to hire a friend as our summer student and we worked well together. When I got stuck, I’d run ideas past her and we got excited about some of the projects we were running with youth.
But now she was gone, and it was almost winter and I was running the projects all alone. I got up every morning and dragged myself out of bed, dragged myself to my windowless office and plunked myself in front of the computer. But I was getting depressed. I was overwhelmed. I was worried I wasn’t doing a very good job.
And I didn’t know what to do. I loved the type of work I was doing. I respected my boss and the organization but I could barely convince myself to get out of bed. And the panic attacks weren’t going away.
I tried everything. I was doing more yoga. I was seeing a therapist. I’d even tried going to church… but nothing helped.
And so, only a year into my career. I quit. I got rid of everything I owned. I rented out my apartment and I move to a yoga retreat and study centre in the Kootenay mountains.
The panic attacks went away almost immediately. I felt safer in the forest. And slowly over two years I put myself back together.
So why am I telling you all this?
Because I want you to know that I understand what it feels like to be having trouble sleeping, to feel like you have too many things on your plate, not enough hours in the day and to feel uncertain if you’re doing what you’re really suppose to do.
And that’s one of the reasons I created Decrease Stress and Get an Hour of Your Day Back, a free checklist, so that you can make more time to get into nature and do the things that you love!
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My gift to you.
- feel like at the end of the day you have nothing left to give
- feel more sensitive than usual to the little things that come up
- feel like you’ve taken on too much and aren’t certain if it’s all really aligned with your purpose
This checklist will show you the steps to feel lighter, a sense of accomplishment and get an hour of your day back.
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Career & Burnout Coach
The Courage Compass