I woke up at 5 am feeling heavy…

I woke up at 5 am this morning with a heaviness in my chest. I put my hand on my heart and tried to breathe into the tension. I breathed deeply into my belly. I listened to the memoir I’m loving, Present over Perfect, for half an hour. And eventually the tension released enough that I could go back to sleep.

It’s 10:30 am now and I’ve made it to my favourite cafe. It has an exposed brick wall and chunky wood furniture and it’s brimming with people. I put my headphones in and open up my laptop to write. The heaviness in my chest is still here.

“The only way out is through” Robert Frost once wrote. And I know this is true with this heaviness. I can distract myself from it, I can watch TV or call a friend and talk about something unrelated. I can drink cappucinos and then quickly switch to hard cider at lunch.

But numbing is only a temporary solution. If I want to make it through I have to feel this. I need to invite the heaviness into my body completely. Maybe cry a little. Maybe yell a little. Feel it, express it. Let it pass through.

Intellectually, I know this is but in practice, it’s super hard. All I want to do is to run away from the feeling. I might feel better if I have a good cry but tears don’t come easily to me.

So here I am, sitting in a cafe feeling the heaviness. I don’t want to run away but I need support to do stay with the feeling.

And that’s exactly the reason I created the Overwhelm and Burnout Support group on Facebook, so that in moments when you feel overwhelmed by feelings you have a safe and private space to talk about what’s happening to you and get support.

We’re small and beautiful right now and I’m excited to have our community grow. If you want a private space to get support, please join us and feel free to share with others who need support – https://www.facebook.com/groups/709703142546627/ and don’t worry, it’s 100% free.

I’m almost done writing this and the heaviness is not gone… but writing about it helps. I can accept the feeling a little more. And somehow knowing you will read this releases the tension a little.

Thank you supporting me by reading this. It feels good to be seen in my imperfection.

Talk soon,
Bryn

Author: Bryn Bamber

I work with big hearted people who want to make a positive impact in the world. The only problem is: -Your career isn’t working -You wake up some days and don’t want to get out of bed -You’re stressed about paying the bills Career Coaching in the Forest teaches you how to make small shifts that will free up tons of energy for the things you really love. A life where you wake up to feeling a sense of purpose and easily pay the bills. I teach you how to approach making a career change in a way that is fun, easy and gets results :). I have over a decade of experience in the field of education and during my four years at an educational non-profit I hired enough contract staff to know what employers want and DON’T WANT in the job application process. So why did I start this? When I was 24, I was overwhelmed by my job working with vulnerable youth and fell apart. I moved to a yoga centre for 2 years to put myself back together. There I figured out what I was messing up at work and became a yoga and meditation teacher. Career Coaching in the Forest will help you to see the mistakes you’re making without having to move to a yoga centre! And use meditative practices to help you see where you need to go. I know exactly what it feels when something’s not right in your career and now I love helping others to make changes so their lives can become full of meaning and purpose again and so that you can make lots money too ;). Start today: get my Free Resource: Land Your Dream Job Checklist here - tinyurl.com/dreamjobchecklist And above all else, please go for your dreams. Your life has meaning. You are here for reason. Find out what it is and when you do put all you that you got towards it! Talk soon! Bryn To learn more go to www.couragecompass.org

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