I have abandonment issues.
And I realized that the best way for me to deal as a child was to ask for less, expect less, suppress my needs because if I was too “needy” (it’s healthy for kids to have tons of needs) the person who I needed withdraw even deeper.
And so I learned, need less and you’ll at least get something.
But this week I realized how this affects how I spend money.
I’m thinking about going on a trip, just for fun, over the holidays.
And that terrifies me.
To spend a good chunk of money on something that’s so incredibly nonessential feels insane.
And typically when I run into financial issues, I think the solution is to spend less. I don’t consider that the solution could be to earn more.
I’m putting my abandonment issues from childhood, onto money.
As a child, if I had fewer needs, I’d be okay.
And as an adult, I think if I need less from money, I’ll be okay.
So I want to be curious about this.
I want to learn more about the shit I’m projecting onto money.
And I want to develop a healthy relationship where I’m allowed to need money even as I sometimes am more prudent and sometimes focus on building my savings.
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