Poetry

Renewing in the light

Kootenay Lake, Photo credit: Francesca Cogorno

open
soften
still

what is still there?
what blocks the stillness?

poetry
distills
my thoughts

I want to find the truth.

feeling connected
feeling relaxed

at home
and held

you are a part
of my family.

is equivalent
with beauty

are my breasts beautiful?

i want to be held
i don’t want to be fucked

what is my worth?

distraction
from the present

happiness
sadness
urgency
information

I change the world
one post at a time.

I avoid it at all costs
taking the long way
to school

taking the long way
to a joyful life

until I can’t avoid it anymore.

turn
face
open
to pain.

I feel like an elephant is sitting
on my chest.

I can’t breathe
but I can cry.

I relax
and think that it might be possible that everything will be okay.

I can feel
stress
entering my body

jaw tight
I am angry at the world

I bite my tongue.

I speak out.

my jaw loosens.

vibrant
joyous
orange

my life opens
to playfulness and ease

why can’t I laugh anymore?

I have won
the battle
with my mind.

I am awarded
a new
heart.