I was starting to think something was seriously wrong. I was tired. So tired, that some days at work I would go home early and straight to bed at 4 pm.
I started trying different solutions – I stopped drinking coffee, started drinking green smoothies every day, and I was planning to get my thyroid levels tested.
But nothing worked.
It was one of the scariest decisions I have ever made in my life. The decision to leave teacher’s college and to throw what I thought was going to be my career path away.
Continue reading “Overcoming the fear that stands in your way”
Sometimes I cut people off. And I’m not proud of it.
As I rush to get off the subway I then notice the man with a cane that I’ve just cut in front of…
The last time I crashed a car, I was rushing too. On my way to yoga, ironically… But I was late and didn’t want to miss the class. The road was icy. I knew the road was icy, but thought somehow I was a super human driver.
Life begins at the end of your comfort zone. Do something that scares you. Live a little. Start before you’re ready. You’ll never be ready.
I was delighted to find this note in the drawer of the table I was working at today.
I recently had someone ask me a terrifying question. He asked, if you could do anything what would you do?
And the part that was scary wasn’t that it was the first time anyone had ever asked me that.
It was that he was serious.
Ice-fishing huts, Manitoulin Island
I’ve been working on working on a book for a couple of years now and wanted to share some of the backstory of how I decided to write it and what I’ve learned from the process so far.
Have you ever had someone you don’t know that well, maybe someone at work or a friend of a friend, say why don’t we grab lunch sometime, or dinner? You get a sinking feeling in your stomach, but you say, ‘Sure! Sounds good…’
And then hope they never follow up with a date and time.
I am very excited to finally be sharing with you that I am launching a newsletter full of new ideas and pieces of inspiration focused on taking steps towards a more meaningful life!! It will come out every Friday in a new and beautiful format, and you can peruse on the weekend.
In her most recent book, Still Writing: The Perils and Pleasures of a Creative Life, best-selling author Dani Shapiro writes,
When writers who are just starting out ask me when it gets easier, my answer is never. It never gets easier. I don’t want to scare them, so I rarely say more than that, but the truth is that, if anything, it gets harder. The writing life isn’t just filled with predictable uncertainties but with the awareness that we are always starting over again.
I am sitting in a café with large windows, light streaming in, jazz music playing. At this point, I have an idea, a working title, a little piece of inspiration. I am starting over again. I don’t know how this piece will turn out but I do know that before I leave the cafe I’ll have a first draft.
There is a little bit of uncertainty – roughly 45 minutes of uncertainty – involved in writing this post. And that amount of uncertainty is manageable for me. Bite sized.
Kootenay Lake, British Columbia
At the end of my last blog post on being quarantined on Christmas day I wrote,
In 2016, I am going to prioritize rest.
And now, on January 7th less than 10 days into the year, I’m realizing I don’t know what exactly that would mean. There are some things I can do that are straight-forward, make sure I get enough sleep, not fill my calendar completely full. But other parts of rest feel more elusive.
