I have struggled with worthlessness for as long as I can remember. As a little girl I believed I only had worth if I got good marks, was packed and ready to go on time, if I did the dishes and looked pretty. I used every external marker to give myself worth. If I got a B or was late, I felt terrible. My breath would get fast, my chest would get tight and I would beat myself up.
And now, as an adult, I still fall into these patterns. I rush to the meeting, obsess over my work and beat myself up if I notice a stain on my clothes or if I forget a small detail.
And the thing about worthlessness, is I often don’t realize how it’s influencing my decisions and controlling my life.
Continue reading “Overcoming Worthlessness”
In my last blog post about my big trip up North, I wrote about the fear I was having about the trip.
I was stuck in this place of fear. Everyone was telling me about how lucky I was and how excited I should be and I didn’t feel any of that. Instead I felt scared.
Continue reading “What to do when you’re stuck”
in the afternoon
even though I’m alone on the beach
sun warming back
I go out alone
strong and free
alone on the ocean
I find myself.
where are we now?
and when can we be free?
and do I have to wait?
can I be free now?
or do I have to wait for heaven?
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feel your body
back against the chair
feet on the floor
courses through my veins
overcomes my body
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energy rushes into my body
as I see the tail emerge
against the water
I hold my breath
And our rubber dingy
races through the water
out to sea.
Water sprays my face
and I remember
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